Weird Dream :x

So I had this weird dream last night, actually I had a series of weird dreams..... :0
Anyways, well this is how one of them went...
So we (Me, Santi, Spenser) were taking a test in Ms.Lasotas Class.
below is a picture I drew of how Ms. Lasota's class looks in dreamworld


(yes the walls are yellow)

the arrows pointing downwards are the entrance to another room which you will see in a bit
ANYWAYS,
so me and Santi, are sitting there clueless, and we don't know any of the answers...and we're trying to find people to cheat off of, but nobody is letting us TT^TT so then we get up and go up to a random rack of clothes in the corner of the room & we start looking at price tags for the clothes. Then Spenser comes up and joins us looking at clothes, then Santi says something and Spenser responds "Zoya already told me" then I walk away to an empty desk meant for 2 people and begin doing my test while Santi and Spenser walk to spensers desk and Spenser starts doing Santi's test.

While I am at the empty desk I find myself eating a slice of pizza. I finish my test and I get up to throw away the pizza (the trash can is in the other room)
but I accidentally on purpose threw the slice of pizza all over my test, and all the sauce is all over my answers and what not.
There I meet Megan and then my test covered in Pizza Sauce magically becomes a balloon

Heres a photo of the other room


Ok

the balloon has this marble color on it of like beige and blue, apparently I had vomited on it... (LOL me and Santi were talking about vomit on friday xD) So I was laughing with Megan and I was so proud that my vomit had created suck beautiful art. Me and Megan were playing with the balloon and we go to a corner of the random stack of cardboard boxes, when all of a sudden Santi & Spenser walk in (Spenser has the right side of his hair tied up) and Spenser says "Woah! thats so cool" Then I reply saying "I made it out of throw up! :D" then he responds "Ew. you're gross"

.... yepp that was it...Then I drifted off into another dream that had to do with girls pulling my hair

Bright Eyes

aka: Conor Oberst's previous band before Desparcidos (sp?)

He not only is an amazing singer, but also a very talented song writer/poet, and thats a good thing since most of todays stars have someone behind the curtain write all their hits.

THIS HERE IS PURE RAW TALENT!!!



That Song is Called "First Day of My Life" Its one of his newer songs, Oh my gosh have you listened to the lyrics? They are out of this world, aside from that his voice is so pure and has so much emotion. This song was obviously a hit among his fans. I SWEAR IF A GUY SANG THIS TO ME I'D MARRY HIM IN A HEARTBEAT! *o* -swoons-

You really must check this guy out, especially if you like indie music, even if at first you don't like a song of his, you'll end up liking it somehow (whether it maybe from reading the lyrics and relating to them, or by it simply getting stuck in your head)
;D

-Zoya

Post Valentine Day Blog

SO...... yeah I'm late. But HAPPY Belated VALENTINES DAY! :D



So on Friday (February 13)
I received a serenade in 1st period Japanese.
I was first frightened that it might have come from Raul, but when I saw that Valeria got one I remembered Megan telling me that morning that she had a surprise for me :D

Oh so... then in drawing class Ms. Levine was giving out a bunch of cards... so I took one
and gave it to some of my friends... I made sure that I wrote a lot.

During Math Class Santiago showed me the cards that he made for his friends (but NOT ME)
so I stole the most important special card that he made for Spenser, and refused to give it back to him until he made me a valentines card out of WHITE COPY PAPER and I made sure he copied how all the other cards looked like.

He was afraid to give Spenser the card so he made me run all the way to APHG as soon as the bell rang...
Dang I run fast, I found spenser and I handed him the card, making sure it was facing the back so he knew it was from Santi and not from me!

Spenser, seemed quite confused when he read it, but that was his problem.
Then I handed him a card.. (that I got from drawing class) & all it said was "Happy Valentines Day!"
and his response was "Thats it?"
;O so I took it back and decided to write a heart felt card, making sure it took up every single space of the card.

So after school I found Spenser and put the card in his bag.
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Then later that evening I was texting him and I got a text from him saying "You like me, don't you"
That was super awkward
so I responded "As a friend"
there is nothing wrong with spenser, I would choose him over Raul (and other xxxxx guys) any day....
but, he's like a cool gay friend you can mess around with. He reminds me so much of my childhood bestie, Randy.
both are twerp like HAHAHAHA
Yeahhh



"And its a leap of faith when you believe there is someone out there;
Its a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares
and when I call out to you, will you be right there?"

Sorry

I've always felt as if I was the person, that would lend a shoulder for some one to cry on. I've always put my friends happiness before mine. But its different with me, apparently I'm all alone. I can't cry in front of anyone because I feel as if I should show like I am strong and simple, as if I don't develop feelings that everyone has. Well I'm human, I break easily.
Yeah, so I smile a lot and I'm happy most of the time, but haven't you ever heard that a smile is just a cover up. I've had crappy days, and I just smile. Maybe its just me, maybe I can't trust anyone with my true feelings. I feel like I have been taken for granted, and I'm sorry but I won't be used anymore. This is the end. I've missed my chance so many times before, thanks to you. And most likely I won't be getting them back. So whatever, All of you are on your own. I've had it, I hope that you struggle without me there, and if you don't then good for you. I won't be fixing your mistakes I've helped you out so many times before. I was always there for you.
I don't care anymore. Don't expect me to care.