You'​re dumbe​r than a can of rocks​

This is from a bulletin I posted up on myspace. I thought It would be a good Idea to put it up as a blog



"Serio​usly!​ I feel like takin​g a bunch​ of pebbl​es,​ paint​ing your face on each of them,​ and putti​ng them all in a can and kicki​ng it into the stree​t.​

You'​re makin​g a fool of yours​elf,​ stop follo​wing/​liste​ning to her like a dog.
UGHH!​!​ you make me so angry​,​ learn​ to live life by yours​elf.​ You won'​t alway​s have your frien​d(​s)​ with you.

You'​re a nice perso​n and all, but I feel that you shoul​d be indep​enden​t.​ You shoul​dn'​t be conne​cted to _​_​_​_​_​_​_​_​_​ so much.​ You'​re so dumb,​ who do you think​ you are?​!​?​!​ <--- that was unnec​essar​y.​ YOU FRUST​RATE ME!

I think​ you shoul​d learn​ a lesso​n,​ I won'​t teach​ it to you, but I think​ you will event​ually​ come acros​s it.
Gawsh​ If I wasn'​t inter​rupte​d by my mothe​r just now I would​ have said a lot more thing​s,​ but they just slipp​ed my mind.​

But yeah,​ you aren'​t speci​al whats​oever​,​,​,​you'​re norma​l just like all of us. You need to reali​ze this and snap back to reali​ty.​ Frien​ds come and go.

I know i am sound​ing like such b*​tch,​ but I am not sayin​g this to your face.​ I am just hopin​g you read this and learn​ somet​hing from it.
Would​ I not be a b*​tch if I said nothi​ng and just thoug​ht this?​
It would​ drive​ me crazy​,​ and there​ is a risk I might​ screa​m at you.
this bulle​tin is a way for me to vent, i guess​.​.​.​"

I know what I want to be when I grow up...

Ok. So today I was having a discussion with some people about what we want to do with our future...
So Christina was saying she wanted to be an engineer by choice...
and Avery said he wanted to be a Marine Biologist by choice...

I felt so embarrassed saying I wanted to be a musician/artist, but honestly I don't see myself in any other field.

My mom wants me to be in the medical field...

But..... I know that I can be successful in anything I set my mind to.

I think I can be a successful musician

ANGER?

These past days I've felt so..... angry?

No... I'm trying to love again...

Well anyways today was fun hmm.... in the morning I was with Danica and Erin walking around campus... then the usual. school

LOL then Ms. Pataytays class.... I was so hungry my stomach was growling really really loud.

YAY !! we had a sub for Lasota :"D but the sub looks like she had some major plastic surgery done to her face..
after that.

Hmm.... Oh yeah, then at HOPE I asked Anderson for a an AP book but he didn't have one. Hey that kid isn't as mean to me as he used to be, for the first time he actually spoke to me with a smile on his face. I remember on team builders in Ms. Lasota I had to talk to talk to him about myself... but it was so awkward neither of us were talking about ourselves... it was like 2 minutes of awkward silence...

ehhh... I hated that day...

hmmph... I didn't get time to eat my lunch because I was being such a good friend and walking with Valeria all over campus.

Oh yeah and that drawing I have ben working so hard on. Turned out to be crap once I used water colors on it.
Liz and Spenser were just being nice when they said it looked pretty.... LIARS !!

:P
Then after school we were waiting for Megan and Santi.... but they were right around the corner.
So I took Santis Backpack and attempted to throw it in a tree but I failed, then Valeria came running to help me. So I was on her back and I tried putting the backpack on the branch but I failed to even pick it up.
So then Spenser comes running across the street and I totally spazz and scream trying to not let Spenser touch the bag, but then he said he wanted to help so i happily gave it to him. So Spenser spins the bag around and attempts to throw it up in the tree but instead throws it in the parking lot. Finally we got it up there, and we were happy :D

The 5 people I wish to meet in my heaven

These are people.... They aren't all my best friends or people I talk to a lot. These are just some people that I really wish to meet again.

1.) My first best friend. I'm sorry I got mad at you. I thought you left for California without telling me, turns out you were there for just vacation. I never ever saw you after that and I really want to.

2.) hehehe I have known you since forever. Yep you are more than a friend, more than a best friend, you're one of those friends that I know I will be friends with for the rest of my life. :D. You're like the only person I actually talk about my "crush" with, and you also think he is cute ;D I wish I could spend more time with you, especially since I've moved, I love you!! ( like family) :D

3.) hmmm.... well I haven't spoken to you in forever, and you pretty much get weirded out whenever I text you. But I still want you to know that I care about you, and I think you are amazing ! I still stop and think and wonder about how you are doing. I once ran into you over a year ago at Ikea, but I looked like crap, so I didn't want you to see me. Although, I don't think I will ever like you more than a friend. You're special because even though we rarely talk, and we haven't seen each other in over a year I don't think I'll ever forget you.

4.) YOU! YOU! YOU! It took me a while to think about you, but now I know its YOU! I remember in 4th grade we were pretty good friends, lol, You were so short. We both liked the same books and we both liked to draw :D and your sister and my cousin were friends... yeah. but after 5th grade you moved... :( I'm not so sure where, but I think maybe out of state. Well we never keep in touch, but there are times I want to know how you are....."has he grown yet?" "how are his drawings?" "has he changed?" "does he have a gf?! xD" LOL. well. I don't think I'll ever meet you again, if I do it would be like a miracle.

5.) I don't know exactly who you are. can't put my finger on it, but you've inspired me my whole life. You've steered me into the music direction. You're the reason why I've poured my heart into everything I do (art & music wise) You were that voice in the back of my head to tell me that I should keep going. The reason why I took so much time in to teaching myself everything. You're the reason I am becoming someone I want to become. You're making something out of me. I am making something of myself. I want to be inspired again. This is why I wish to meet you in my heaven, I think you've possibly created my heaven.

New Phone !!

Yep... I got a new phone... yesterday :D wanna see it ? Go Here :D

Yep !! I'm happy with it so far.. and also a lot of my friends like it aswell.. it has a GREAT/AMAZING CAMERA !! :D

hmmmm.... but the browser isn't as good as the iphone...... well what do you expect?! its an 80 dollar phone (with the rebate)
!!

Yeah. So I thought I just be doing a quick update for all of you.....

(dot dot dot)


R.I.P

white LG chocolate 1st edition...

...

:D:D:D:D

I just realized that all of my phones so far have been LG phones... :D'


Lifes Good...

Build Me Up, Buttercup

so theres this song thats been stuck in my head!
yep title says it all.
Funny thing is, when I get a song stuck in my head I start screaming-singing it.. making me sound like a tone deaf toad. xD
haha

here are some covers that I like of this song










Here is the original song:


:D

Why do you build me up (Build me up)
Buttercup baby just to
let me down (Let me down)
And mess me around
And then worst of all (Worst of all)
You never call baby
When you say you will (Say you will)
But I love you still
I need you (I need you)
More than anyone darlin'
You know that I have from the start

So build me up (Build me up)
Buttercup
Don't break my heart
I'll be over at ten
You tell me time and again
But you're late
I wait around and then
I went to the door
I can't take any more
It's not you
You let me down again

Baby Baby
Try to find a little time
And I'll make you happy
I'll be home
I'll be waiting beside the phone
Waiting for you.

Why do you build me up....
To you I'm a toy
But I could be the boy
You adore
If you'd just let me know
Although you're untrue
I'm attracted to you
All the more
Why do I need you so Baby Baby.....

ooh ooh ooh
Why do build me up .....

New Years Resolutions =]

I know this is quite late..
but you know what they say, "its better to be late, than really really late"

okay so here they are

1.) NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!!
2.) Build my Network of friends...
3.) Actually use my youtube account
4.) Not get kicked out of my school
5.) Master Drawing Skills
6.) Master the Guitar
7.) Master the Uke
8.) Master the Piano
9.) Make something of myself.
10.) start somewhat enjoying school
11.) be more outgoing, more sociable?
....

Thats all I got now..
be back with more
-Z to the O to the Y to the A !!!
thats mah namme, cheesebiscuit!

Tomorrow is the last day of winter break )=

Im a whole different person without school!
nowwwww
goes back to those dreary days of me no talking...
:D
but I am happier :D